RetromamaJess

I know i'm PMSing, so I'm sure that's what all this is.....

I feel like I have so much on my plate, and I just can't keep my head above water.

DH got his opportunity to start one of his dream businesses. He wants to open up a retail shop, and he has everything all together, but the money. I know he's talking to investers, but lets face it, we don't know anything about retail. His business is going to hell in a handbag thanks to this market, and he needs to do something to make some money. I'm assuming his dad will put the money up, and then collect a "salary" from the business. I feel very distant from it. I feel like I have no say, like I have no oppinion. He tells me it's just as much his as it is mine, but I know nothing about west coast rockabilly...which is what the store would be.

I feel totally overwhelmed with the house. I can't get caught up, and when I have the opportunity, all I want to do is sleep. I'm still up about every 2 hrs at night nursing Dean. I'm exhausted, and then when I get to bed, DH wants to , and all I want to do is sleep.

I really want to continue with my lactation studies, but if this retail store gets going, my days and nights are going to have to be devoted to that, since that is where most of our income would be coming from. Once again, what I want would be put on hold.

I don't feel pretty. My belly jiggles when I walk, and my thighs are nasty. I can't believe that I am going to have to put on a bathing suit. I have no clothes that fit me correctly. i rotate between the same 2 shirts, and 2 pairs of pants. When i'm home, i'm in PJ's, which dosen't make me feel exactly sexy.

Mike is haivng a really hard time going to school, and he told DH last week, that he didn't want to see mommy, cause mommy is always with Dean. That makes me feel awful :sad:

We got Mike a scooter today, and we told him that he can only have it if he lets us cut his hair. DH had a meeting about a retail store, and Mike got up and told me he wanted to cut his hair so we could play with the scooter. I got the clippers out, and DH had said he wanted to use a #1 this time, to make it a little shorter (we usually do a #2 on the bottom, and scissors on the top) I didn't think it would do any harm to just use the clippers on the top too (i'm NOT very good with the clippers) and I cut a HUGE chunk of hair off his head. It was sooo bad, that we had to hold him down, and practacly shave his head. It's horribly uneven, but he won't let us touch him. I know my monster in laws are going to bitch to holy Hell about it tomorrow at dinner. And DH blames me. He says "If you would have just waited for me, that would have never happened" Which is true, but I want to do something by myself for a change damit. I feel like I have to rely on him for EVERYTHING...money, to go to the store, to get gas, to go to the playground...EVERYTHING. I feel like I have no independence. He's so scared someone is going to hurt me, or get the kids, cause i'm such an easy target.(I'm usually paying attention to the kids, and not my surroundings)

There is so much around the house I should be doing, but i just don't feel like doing ANYTIHNG...

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Pautzie

What will the retail shop sell? What is west coast rockabilly? Is it a music shop?

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Jessica

I know how you feel about always putting off your dreams because of something else. Since I became a sahm 5 years ago I have always been on the back burner.
I got so tired of feeling blah all the time. That's when I decided it was MY time!! That is why I now wake up before everyone and go work out. I have also decided that I was worth the money and started getting my hair done. Now I feel so much better about myself. Running has been a major stress reliever and it gives me time by myself. I literally get to run away.

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Tricia

Hey sweetie. I know how you feel. I just wanted to give you a hug

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