My dr. visit

gooberette · 06-26-2007, 11:02 PM

Well to try and make a long story short, I went to the dr. last week for my yearly exam and to ask him about some awful pains I have been having. Well yesterday I finally got some answers. They are pretty sure that I have endometriosis. Let me tell you I was shocked to find this out. I was expecting something like cysts or fiboriods or something of that sort. After my first appointment, we got in the car and I just bawled. And of coarse my pain had to peak when I was in the middle of dealing with all these emotions. I feel so frustrated. Since we are trying to get pg there's really not a whole lot they can do for me. My dr. said that if the pain gets really bad I can go in for a lap(whatever), then I would know for sure about the diagonsous and hopefully they could ease the pain but it's kind of a last resort measure

The dr. told me to use opk and if I wasn't Oing for a couple of months that they put me on some clomid or even possible putting dye in my tubes? I don't know how that works but I guess I might eventually

Sorry to vent all this on you guys I'm just so frustrated. I feel like I have just been diagnosed with this awful disease that not many people understand and no one can do much about it. I really only feel good for about two weeks out of the month then the pain starts until it gets so bad I can't hardly function and I feel like there's nothing that can really be done

And I'm starting to think it is going to take us a long time to get pg. I really hope it doesn't but I have no reason to think other wise. This past while ttc has started to really frustrate me and now I feel like there is no end in sight. We wanted a big family and now I'm not even sure I'm going to be able to give my husband that.

Dh has been so great with everything but I still feel like I've failed him at being a good wife and a mother. I'm so grateful that he's being so understand and it helps but I don't know, I just still feel like I'm not good enough for him. I don't do very much around the house when I don't feel good, so the house is a mess, I don't make dinner, and of coarse I'm feeling miserable so I'm not the best company. I want to be better but it is so hard when I feel like crap. The weeks when I feel good aren't too bad but it just seems like there isn't enough of that good time. Plus it's getting worse

Anyway, sorry this turned out WAY longer then I thought it was going to, I'm just not sure how to deal with either the physical or emotional side of having endo but I guess I will learn. One good thing at least has been that on days that I do feel go I'm learning to appericate them a lot more and really take the time to enjoy them.

Thanks for listening.

Emma · 06-26-2007, 11:32 PM

I am so sorry sweetie. It's good to have an answer for your pain, but I know it wasn't the news you wanted.

There is a lot of support here and know that you are in my prayers. I hope you get the BFP really, really soon.

Koloe · 06-27-2007, 01:12 AM

Sorry.

Hopefully you get your BFP soon. And hopefully they can find some thing for you to help ease the pain.

jillian1527 · 06-27-2007, 08:26 AM

Endo is horrible but you don't know for sure and how bad it is. I have/had it. I have had 3 macroscopic surgeries to dx me and have it removed. I have even had it growing on my c/s scar tissue.Please feel free to pm if you want to talk about it.

Tricia · 06-27-2007, 08:41 AM

Aww Janeal Sorry you didn't get the news you wanted. I wish I had something to offer. I know my cousin had endo pretty bad but she has a set of twins and a son who were conceived in a rather short amount of time considering she had endo. So it is possible. Hand in there.....

Lisa · 06-27-2007, 10:57 AM

Im sorry...hope you get that BFP soon.

dnay76 · 06-27-2007, 12:24 PM

Hope you feel better soon and get a BFP real soon too.