Tricia

I am completely exhausted. I don't really want to go into a bunch of details but Rich's behavior is getting more and more desperate, the more I take care of myself. I started going to Al-anon about a month or so ago, and his behavior is just escalating. Which led to Saturday night's destruction. My camera and My laptop.

I am determined to stick with him for the time being but it is so hard. I practice detatchment so well that I am almost falling out of love with him. My therapist says I need to get a safetly plan in place (I am working on it) But just hearing her say that makes me feel in total denial. It is so hard to accept that I am in an abusive relationship. Just re-reading that doesn't seem real to me.

I have to remember to keep a grasp on reality and not let Rich sway the truth and make me start to think that what he is doing "isn't that bad" because that is where I have been going.

I really have found a new found faith in God. Things have been happening, for the good, since I have been putting my trust back in God. It is so hard when you just want everything to be fixed now and the way I want it. But that isn't necessarily how it is suppose to happen. So I have to trust that God will do it right and his way, which of course he will.

I have a neighbor and good friend who I have been going to church with and her husband is a recovering alcoholic of 19years. He said that he will talk to RIch but only if it won't make things worse between him and I. So I guess as long as the seeds are getting planted in Rich's head then hopefully things will begin to change, that is all I can ask for.

Rich said the other day "we will either have to get divorced or he will have to go to rehab" I know that. I said something to RIch today about a separation. If we had the money I really think I would go ahead and do it. Maybe not legally but just until he stops drinking.

The good thing is that Rich is in counsoling and that is good. I really, really appreciate your support. It is so hard right now to get on and respond to posts and I hope everyone understands. I will never be able to express my sincere gratitude for the love and support you all have given me. It is truly appreciated.

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Koloe

I'm glad that Rich is at least taking a first step forward and going to counseling. I hope for your families sake he continues and gets his drinking under control.

Consider and exit plan like life insurance. You have it because you might need it, but you hope to never use it. Top priority needs to be keeping the kids and yourself safe. Do you have a Women's shelter anywhere near you? They might be able to help you if you had to leave suddenly. Check you phone book out for various help lines - you might be able to get some information there.

Has Rich ever considered going to an AA meeting?

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zi will be thinking of you all.

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Angela

I know it is so hard to even talk about being in and abusive relationship and even mention seperation when you have done nothing but love this person for years... you know I am here for you... if you ever need me, give me a call You are always in my s

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Pautzie

That is great that Rich is getting counseling. Maybe he will admit he has a problem. We love you Tricia!

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Tricia, I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through. I know what it is like to be in an abusive relationship, so if you need to talk I'm here for you.

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