OMG girls I just don't know if I have it in me to stick it out much longer, I feel like a complete failure and I'm an emotional wreck. I know it probably sounds stupid but I was so happy to actually be BF'ing and I DON'T want to stop, but I'm not sure how much more I can handle.
It all started after JJ's last GI appt. when he told us to give him EBM after every other nursing. I was adamant at first about no bottles, but he started getting so bad that I was actually starting to question whether or not I was making enough for him. So I caved and we gave him 1-2 bottles of EBM mixed with a little cereal (after nursing him) a day. We quickly realized he couldn't tolerate the cereal, no surprise there as Rylie and Peyton couldn't have cereal either. We stopped the cereal but he continued flipping out and then began refusing to nurse after the initial letdown. I was able to switch him to the other breast, get through the first letdown and put him back to the first breast and so on, but that only lasted a few times... he quickly caught on to that scheme. It just kept getting worse and worse from then on. I tried taking Fenugreek and he ended up with painful gas and green diarrhea so I stopped that too (his diarrhea is slowing down to mostly wet farts but its still kinda green). Finally he just started refusing the breast all together, today is day 4. Seriously the mere site of bare breast sends him into a screaming frenzy... never mind what happens when the nipple even gets close. He gets so frantic that I can't even calm him down. He wants absolutely nothing to do with me, half the time hes not even happy if I'm holding him. Yet he is mostly content with Bobby or Sadie. I have tried nursing using the SNS but he won't let my boob get close to him so thats a no go, he won't even tolerate a feeding with a dropper he just wants the bottle. I was able to catch him this morning and get him to latch on and nurse for a couple minutes before he woke up and realized it was THE boob (first time he has even latched on in 3 days). I have been offering the breast every feeding and then pumping but my supply has been drying up drastically and my stash is dwindling fast. I am SO not ready to be done with BF'ing, but I am quickly loosing my patience and persistence not to mention the emotional drain of it all.
I wish I had some magic fix, but you have tried the 2 things I was going to suggest. SNS system and nursing while he was asleep. Caleb went through a nursing strike (he was a bit older 8 monts) and I finally got him back nursing after a few days by nursing him at night before he was fully awake. Another thing I did was spend an entire day snuggled on the couch with him and just kept offering and offering and he started nursing again. It's tough, I know, hopefully others will have better suggestions.
I'm sorry that you're going through this hun.. I don't have any advice but I know this must be frustrating and all I can say is that hopefully it gets better soon and you will be in my thoughts :)
Donna, have you tried your LLL leader? The last Florida meeting was all about reflux and reflux babies nurseing, etc. She might be able to give you some advice.
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I know how hard this is Donna. I really wish I had a cure for you. I would try continuing to offer the breast for a at least a few more days before giving up and pumping in the meantime.