RetromamaJess

I'm feeling guilty I want to keep Bfing, but I just don't have the energy. I'm exhausted before i even wake up at night. He is eating every 2 hours during the day, weather it's formula or breast milk, and then 3 hrs at night. Between that and Mike, I just can't do it. I had a breakdown this morning, and I jsut couldn't stop crying. I'm feeling incredably stressed and overwhelmed. I don't know if i want to stay at home anymore.

I'm still useing the sheilds, since I don't have the energy or patience to try w/o right now. I'm suposed to go see my LLL leader tomorrow for help, but I forgot my van will be in the shop, and i won't have a car.

I get soo stressed by 11:00 am that eveyone feels it....I'm screaming at Mike, and frustrated by Dean....then Dean won't sleep, he wants to be held, and it's hard to hold a newborn, and play with a 2 yo. I have tried setting him up things to do while I nurse, and get him snacks and stuff, but i get so overwhelmed i can't get a let down.....

I'm so tired i can't sleep if that makes any sense. I just don't know if i can go on like this....think it's PPD?

I just feel sooo guilty for wanting to give up. Dean has been getting more and more bottles of formula every day.....it just seems more convient to me...but I hate to stop BF...i just don't know what to do to make me happy...

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Amanda05

I am sorry you are feeling so down Don't feel guilty. You gave it a shot. If you are stressed and overwhelmed your supply will suffer. Maybe you can just nurse in the morning and before bed or something. That way you are still BFing but also getting a break in the day. I hope you start feeling better

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RetromamaJess

I don't want to sound selfish, but is doing that still going to give me the "benefits" of BFing? Like the calories it burns, and the emotional bond?

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Donna

I'm sorry things are so tough Jess, believe me I know how hard it is !! And trust me when I say that stressing out about it only makes everything so much harder, not only with BF'ing but EVERYTHING in general. You gave it a great shot and you should be very proud of yourself for that!! You need to decide what is best for you, whether it be supplementing or just formula.... the kiddos need a happy mama and thats whats important! Don't be hard on yourself for using the shield, I had to use it again in the beginning this time. Hell some times during our overnight feedings I have to break it back out when I nurse him in bed laying down. I don't know about the calories but I think anytime spent nursing your child is a special bond.

I've found that if I include Rylie and Peyton in when I'm nursing things go a lot smoother rather than when I give them "something" to do. Like during the day when its just me I take the boppy into one of their rooms (they pick) and I nurse Jayden on the floor. Rylie gets to carry in the boppy and Peyton sometimes carries the blankets, then Rylie is in charge of Jayden's binkie and Peyton is in charge of my nursing pads ( ). That way I have both free hands and I'm down on their level to still play. Sometimes we read a book, play cars, dance and sing to their music playing thing, but most of the time they really enjoy "cooking" me stuff in their kitchen. They love to feed mommy while mommy feeds baby.

I also take advantage of the times that Jayden is sleeping during the day by getting things like breakfast/lunch supplies ready before hand and so on.

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Koloe

It will Probably still help some, but it won't be as effective, as you won't be nursing full time. Dean will still be getting some immunilogical benifits from it as well. Some nursing is better than no nursing. But it will effect your supply adversly. The first 4-6 weeks are probably the hardest part of nursing. It takes longer for some people than for others.

If you are always feeling overwhelmed, then it's possible you could be suffering from PPD. Have you had your 6 week PP visit yet? If not, bring it up when you have that appointment. If it's here and gone, call for an appointment.

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Jessica

Before you give up on nursing, make an appointment for yourself. Go to your doctor and tell him/her how your feeling and what's going on. You could be depressed. It is so hard to take care of kids, a house, a dh, worry about finances, and not be sleeping.
I hope things get better for you.

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