So I guess everyone knows that I have PMDD. I am not taking my medicine at this point because it makes me so freaky tired that I get nothing done!
Last night I was not really in the mood but I knew that dh was and I am about to start so I thought I would be nice. I showered, shaved my legs, and wore a thong to bed. Dh asked why I was "dressed up". I said that I thought he would like it. For some reason this started a stupid fight about me making this ALL about him. I told him that marriage was give and take. Just because I wasn't "in the mood" didn't mean that I couldn't get in the mood.
To make a long stupid fight shorter, I'll cut to the hurtful part. He says no matter what I do or what happens I'm going to be wrong and you're going to be mad. I was like WTF?!?! Apparently I have been mean to him and hurtful to him all because I'm about to start. I seriously have no freaking idea what he is talking about. The only thing I can think of is yesterday morning (6:30am) I got up with Sarah and as I got back into bed he said I thought you were going to the gym. Um, I'm half asleep that didn't come across well. I said that I messed up my alarm. He then says I heard it go off!! I was like yes it did but I guess I hit the off button instead of snooze. I'm thinking stop grilling me!! What does it matter at that point?
That is the only time that I can remember that I was "mean" to him.
I'm really hurt because if any of this is true I feel that he should gentley call me out when I am in one of my "moods". He should not hold things against me like that. I truly have no control over my emotions at times. It doesn't make it right!!! I know that.
I did tell him that if I was so bad to him that he should just leave.
Sorry this is so long. If you stuck with me to the end thanks!